The New Beginning

This blog was untitled “How I Plan To Save The World” because it was initially intended as a memoir about how I planned to shape my life, through my endeavors and career moves , in an attempt to positively affect the world. But I’ve come to a period of my life where a lot of reevaluating and reconstructing has taken place. Some self-doubt emanating from my past failure to advance closer to my goals has tempered the zeal with which i used to approach my future. I need to start working on riding myself of doubt because lack of confidence and a pessimistic approach to ones aspiration could mean death to any kind of lofty goals i may entertain within myself.

I am not the type to enjoy sharing my life story, especially the intamacy of my own private thoughts with strangers yet alone friends or relatives. However I find within myself an urge to express my thoughts and feelings. So I guess this is my attempt to do so. I could easily find a way of twisting and stretching the idea of the website to come to be a biography of my life. In gist I would say something like; In order for me to be able to change the world I need to begin with changing myself. It wouldn’t be far from the truth, in fact. But my reason for deciding to focus on an autobiographical type of journal is simply that I feel like it is a healthy and practical thing to do. We all know about psychologists’ reasons for recommending the keeping of a diary: to keep your thoughts organized, to actually know what you are thinking about, and to fulfill your human need to express yourself. But what are the practical reasons that I believe something will also be gained in the process? Well firstly there is the opportunity to practice writing, to experiment with different styles, to experiment with the use of newly learnt vocabulary, basically to improve one’s mastery of the English language. However what I really find as a motivating reason to write is that in the future, me or my future children may be able to look back at my life story and at the things I was thinking about at the moment and maybe learn something from it. Since I find it hard to take on a challenging task when my intentions are not altruistic; I have decided that this journal will, in my own mind, be something that anyone can read, enjoy and maybe gain some insight in another individual’s thoughts, wishes, worries, fears, aspirations and beliefs. I noticed you don’t always get a chance to receive a true reflection of what a person thinks and feels in general though a blog, but when you do just you cant stop reading. Many times you even see yourself in that person, you own their thoughts or a least you empathise. The reason for this is that, we might all come from different paths in life but essentially we are made of the same stuff, body and mind. So I guess this is a new beginning for my blog, where I concentrate on delivering, in its most pristine form, my most initimate thoughts about my life and the world that I live in.